Regaining balance

When I was thinking about what to write for today, I kept looking through what I did this week to find inspiration. However, my week was pretty much just filled with working and working out and working (out) some more. Both of those are investments in the coming water-ski season, but I understand that it’s not the most exciting thing to read about, especially not week after week. Then I thought about anything that I learned or any revelations I had during the week. That is when I started getting somewhere regarding a topic for this blog. 

Story time! 
Somewhere this week, I was biking to the gym where I have my personal training sessions. This is about 7-8km away, so it is about half an hour in which I just have time to myself and get to thinking. At this moment I realized that I was getting a little bit overwhelmed with everything I had been doing. Like I said, my weeks are filled with working and working out, especially since I work normal hours in a supermarket and then also babysit for multiple families. It happens regularly that I only have time to cook and eat between work and babysitting. So a day will be make and eat breakfast, prepare lunch to take to work, eat lunch at work, make dinner and either eat it quickly or take it to where I’m babysitting. Then try to fit working out into the equation too and the biking everywhere. I’m not complaining at all, since it’s my choice to do these things, and like I said I do see them as an investment in something that’s important to me. But spending some time alone with my thoughts whilst biking I definitely felt like I was missing out on quite a lot of social occasions. Everything that I had been doing all the time involved me and were for me. I felt sort of isolated and missed my friends and family, which is ridiculous, because I’m actually home for once and not in a different country. So, since I am in control of how much I fill my days with doing things for myself, I can change it so easily. I just wasn’t aware of how I felt and that I missed doing other things, because I was completely stuck in that flow. 

When I got to my trainer, she also asked if I already started missing water-skiing. At that point I also saw that I didn’t just miss water-skiing as a sport and hobby, but also as a time where I get to feel nothing but the joy and determination that it gives. The moments where nothing else exists except the speed and the technique, the sound of the boat, the spray of the water.... yeah I miss it! I now see that it also helps with channelling my stress somewhere and clearing my mind. Over the past months I was really captivated by the goals that I have for water-skiing and how to best work towards them that I let go of the pure joy I have in it a bit too much. 

So what I learned this week... time to re-evaluate a bit. Get the balance between everything water-ski and having a life outside of that back. Since this was easy to do once I realised the problem, I immediately went to visit my grandparents today! I will also make sure I spend some more time with everyone here before I leave again. Even if I have to run to meet them in order to get all my work outs for the week .